it is a bad bad day

I duno why, i m so moody today, guess- because im alone today.
being ffk by fren, smal sis go to prom night, im alone at home without having dinner.
yes, im extremly moody, im alone today, bf at penang, no one at home with me, only 2 doggies barking at me craving for food.
I jx cut my hair today at kevin chan because sis wan go set her hair for prom night, not really satisfied wit it. spent 23 for a hair, kinda broke for it. But i enjoy the young guy cutting my hair. This was the 1st time i let guy cut my hair, the feeling is different, especially when he blowed my hair . *shy*
however, my hair drops alot, guess gonna bald soon :(
tonight, gonna be a bad night, tonight gonna be a bad bad night, every1 is enjoying outside, while im alone at home doing nothing. how come, when i nid some friend accompany me and there is no one there for me ? how come, a companist for dinner also dont have ?
majority, all of the friend list, they are male, and female friend is hard to be seen. am i not sociable ? i admit that i very hard to be approached, because im afraid of being used, or being hurt by friend. sometimes, will jealous those ppl got alot friend. well, i admit tht im kinda bored person. yea, a boring + weird personality. anyway friends, i cherish our relationship :)

Only Love - trademark

This was the song my 1st bf declared his love in the greeting card via email few years ago, finally i got it. i love this song very much.

2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me
But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do
In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust
But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do
I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give my dreams just one more chance
To let this be our last goodbye
But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do
That's something only love can do

KTM

今天乘踏快铁回SUBANG花了两小时，在TASIK SELATAN等了半小时，接着在KL SENTRAL 等了好久，好累好累。一路上，我只想回家，我的脚好酸好酸。
火车上，遇到色狼，想乘机吃我豆腐，结果挨了我一拳。
-本小姐最恨遇到这些毛小子，别以为我扛很多东西想吃我豆腐，可恶！
八点钟，抵达目的地，一路上，很艰辛。
路上，遇见来自各地的外劳，想必他们都是为了自己的梦想目标离乡背井来干活。
要离开自己所爱的人到陌生的地方干活并不容易，面对语言障碍背对着外劳名分来干活，一点都不容易。
若那一天，离乡背井深学的日子到来，是否我也能够这么坚强熬过一切？是否我能很勇敢对大家说我可以我一定会成功？我很期待又害怕，因为我知道我不能再错过这机会了，等待着。

To my only you

Its the love connects us together,
Im not a good girl friend,
but definitely i will be a good wife.

To my lover,
you are my only one
My love is prisoner,
Its to u i only surrender

When I'm with you,
eternity is a step away,
my love continues to grow,
with each passing day.

This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
how much I love you...
you'll never really know.

You bring a joy to my heart,
I've never felt before,
with each touch of your hand,
I love you more and more.

Whenever we say goodbye,
whenever we part,
know I hold you dearly,
deep inside my heart.

So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
"Forever And Always,
I Will Love You."

为你写的一封信。。

好久好久没遇见你了，
显然没有我的日子你过得很好，
你肥多了，
真的好久好久我们没见面了，
也难怪你认不出我，
我们分手的日子也过了两千天了吧？
那段日子其实真的很开心，
还记得你做的那些早餐，真的好好味，
尤其是有心型的便当我最开心了，
享受和你吃早点的日子，
每一天早去学校就为了和你吃早餐，
你很粘我，最爱和我煲电话了，
我最爱听你为我唱歌，
说些悄悄话，
说说心底话，
你真的很在乎我，
我也很喜欢和你在一起的感觉，
还记得你最怕我生气了，
那时老妈很不开放，我们约会的地点只有演唱会和大日子，
真的很难熬，
当我生气时，你总是有办法哄得我很开心，
可惜我们注定今生今世不能在一起，
那是缘分吧，
最爱的情人未必是我的丈夫。。
那一段日子，真的很开心，
但，那已是陈年往事。。

我对你这刻苦铭心的爱。。

这就是人生吧，不该是你的永远都不是你的，
得不到的爱情永远是最可贵的，
爱他却得不到他的心。。
有关你的一切我都知道，
只缺你的心。。
这么久了，原来我还放不下，
如果爱你是种罪，我宁愿这辈子没遇见你，
我试着从你的背影里走出，怎么却迷失了自己
那一刀的伤疤仍刺在我心底最深处。。
今天你和她的出现，
我有点不想遇见，
你对我的伤害，我依然记得。。
就算哪天我结婚生子了，
这一段情我都会耿耿于怀。。

今天，脑海里总是在想着些事，想着，人到底怎么诞生的？
接着，就想起小时侯听过的故事，ADAM & EVE 的故事。
从前从前，上帝用泥土制造了一个人，名为ADAM，上帝制造了一个花园给ADAM，里头有许多会跑会动的动物，之后上帝觉得很愧疚没制造一个和ADAM一样的人类，所以隔天上帝制造了EVE来陪伴ADAM。ADAM 很开心。上帝吩咐过不可以吃花园中的一棵果实，这棵树叫TREE OF THE KNOWLEDGE OF GOOD AND EVILS.可是后来因为撒旦的诱惑，他们两人都吃了果实，结果，现在我们人类要受罪面临生死命运。
有些人说是个荒谬，不合逻辑，我不知道。
这世界就是这么奇妙的吧。
人为什么会哭会笑会生气呢？
有些人一出生就不能说话，那是为什么呢？
是不是他前世的罪呢？
突然间，变得那么无知~